I was once asked why I do so much for the females in my life. I was asked why I choose to give my undivided attention to the many females who go in and out of my life. Am I scared of commitment, afraid of being hurt. After a long search for the answers to these questions I came to this conclusion:
I am who I am for a reason. I love women for who they are and not for what they offer me. I am man who sees the beauty in the women around him. I find the perfection in the women who see nothing but imperfection within themselves. I am the safety blanket I am man should be to a woman. I strive to make sure the women in my life smile and have happiness, even for a brief moment.
I am not afraid of commitment. I commit myself to the women in my life everyday that I wake up with the mind set that I will not be the man to hurt a women and leave broken. I love every woman that opens themselves up to me to show me the hurting person hiding behind the image of a strong and unhurt woman.
I listen to the stories that haunt the women I have grown to love. They have taught me that love comes in many ways and forms. Love and sex may mingle but they don't have to exist together. I aim to please as a man should. Instead of looking for his nut and his nut alone.
I do for the women in my life because the men around them refuse to. I sacrifice myself to know that I made a woman smile. I made a difference in her life. Although it may have been in passing or over years in time, I know I can say that I helped her through her troubled past. I was there when no one else saw her tears behind the smile. We all have a purpose. Mine is to uplift the women who cross paths with me, to make a women feels she deserves more then what is set before her. I set the highest standards for myself in hopes that females aim for a man better then me.
I am a man hurt by a women scorned. I am a man who carries the stories of the women hurt by the men they loved. I am imperfect.
I do the things I do not to avoid a relationship. I do it to forge new ones with the women who need a man not interested in one thing.
I am the man who is everything his father wasn't and everything is mother wanted me to be.
-Boy Wonder growing up a day at a Time...
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Brooklyn Talk: The Opposite Sex
I have lived my life always seeing things through the eyes of both a man and a female. I have tried to be very Subjective to my thoughts in order to be a better man and better understand the on goings of a female's intellect. Last night, I had a very long talk with a few of my frat brothers and it hit me, many guys out there have no clue as to what to do with their life, girl and emotions. So i felt that I had to share a few thoughts with my fellow half of the species as well shed some light on the inner workings of a man's brain for the ladies.
TO THE MEN:
First and foremost, Communication is Key. Set rules off the bat. This the down fall of ALL Men who don't announce their intentions. Just because you think she knows how you feel doesn't mean she actually knows what you are thinking. The difference between men and women are women NEED Titles in order to justify their actions. This is why females always ask if you have a 'girl that you are talking to' or 'Am I just another girl you are trying to have sex with?' If you are sleeping with a female and spending time with her, you may think you are just friends with sex on the side but she most likely thinks you are her next man. She will want the label of your girlfriend. When this happens, she will expect more from you. So if you don't want to end up one day with her stuff in your dresser, SAY SOMETHING.
Second, Leading females on to sex and leaving, not the best choice in the world. I have learned that the world is a small place and females talk. So be honest. If you think she is hot and you would love to bed her, let her know that is where you see it leading and no further. If she isn't with it, chalk it up as a loss and keep it moving. We are out numbered by females 4 to 1; There is plenty to pick from. If you don't know where you want it to go, say so. Females may say they know everything but if you do not put your word in, they will do it for you in their mind and set goals for what THEY want.
If a female isn't interested, she wouldn't deal with you; if she deals with you, chances are she is interested. She will always show signs that she may not be aware of. body gestures such as twirling her hair, smiling when she looks at you, turning her face when you look at her for long periods of time. AT THIS POINT it is your job to calm her nerves and make her feel comfortable. This DOES NOT mean you should try and make a sexual Move. If you play your cards right, she will do that by herself.
Something I learned at the age of 7 which has helped me Greatly with women. Learn to LISTEN! What she rambles about may not interest you but just put that time in and pay attention to her gestures, the words she uses and the looks she makes as she describes things. Just because she says something DOES NOT mean she is telling you the truth. her body language and tone of voice will always tell you what you need to know. Details like this are important to keeping a woman interested. She may give you a chance but if you drop the ball, you will be left holding yourself with your pants down and confused as to why you are alone.
TO WOMEN:
The words to you are simple. Men need three things: Food, entertainment and sex. Yes, its that simple. We try to act like it but we cant read minds. You tell us you hate doing things or something is wrong, we will try to fix it. Its what we do. So just remember a few simple rules.
1) Stroke our ego. You appease us, we are going to melt. No matter how thug the man. If you cater to his ego, there is no limit you cant reach.
2)SPEAK UP! We can not read minds. If you want something, you want to advance the relationship, slow it down, try something, don't hint at it, SAY IT! Otherwise we are blind and in the dark.
3)Be Patient. We are only human. No man is perfect no matter how many qualities he has on your check list. If you know you want something from him, put the time in and don't expect him to know what you want from him off top.
If you didnt know, Now you know
-Boy wonder off yet again
TO THE MEN:
First and foremost, Communication is Key. Set rules off the bat. This the down fall of ALL Men who don't announce their intentions. Just because you think she knows how you feel doesn't mean she actually knows what you are thinking. The difference between men and women are women NEED Titles in order to justify their actions. This is why females always ask if you have a 'girl that you are talking to' or 'Am I just another girl you are trying to have sex with?' If you are sleeping with a female and spending time with her, you may think you are just friends with sex on the side but she most likely thinks you are her next man. She will want the label of your girlfriend. When this happens, she will expect more from you. So if you don't want to end up one day with her stuff in your dresser, SAY SOMETHING.
Second, Leading females on to sex and leaving, not the best choice in the world. I have learned that the world is a small place and females talk. So be honest. If you think she is hot and you would love to bed her, let her know that is where you see it leading and no further. If she isn't with it, chalk it up as a loss and keep it moving. We are out numbered by females 4 to 1; There is plenty to pick from. If you don't know where you want it to go, say so. Females may say they know everything but if you do not put your word in, they will do it for you in their mind and set goals for what THEY want.
If a female isn't interested, she wouldn't deal with you; if she deals with you, chances are she is interested. She will always show signs that she may not be aware of. body gestures such as twirling her hair, smiling when she looks at you, turning her face when you look at her for long periods of time. AT THIS POINT it is your job to calm her nerves and make her feel comfortable. This DOES NOT mean you should try and make a sexual Move. If you play your cards right, she will do that by herself.
Something I learned at the age of 7 which has helped me Greatly with women. Learn to LISTEN! What she rambles about may not interest you but just put that time in and pay attention to her gestures, the words she uses and the looks she makes as she describes things. Just because she says something DOES NOT mean she is telling you the truth. her body language and tone of voice will always tell you what you need to know. Details like this are important to keeping a woman interested. She may give you a chance but if you drop the ball, you will be left holding yourself with your pants down and confused as to why you are alone.
TO WOMEN:
The words to you are simple. Men need three things: Food, entertainment and sex. Yes, its that simple. We try to act like it but we cant read minds. You tell us you hate doing things or something is wrong, we will try to fix it. Its what we do. So just remember a few simple rules.
1) Stroke our ego. You appease us, we are going to melt. No matter how thug the man. If you cater to his ego, there is no limit you cant reach.
2)SPEAK UP! We can not read minds. If you want something, you want to advance the relationship, slow it down, try something, don't hint at it, SAY IT! Otherwise we are blind and in the dark.
3)Be Patient. We are only human. No man is perfect no matter how many qualities he has on your check list. If you know you want something from him, put the time in and don't expect him to know what you want from him off top.
If you didnt know, Now you know
-Boy wonder off yet again
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Strength
I was once asked. "How do you keep your head up & stand so strong in the worst of times"
I have reflected upon this question & found an answer. I keep my head up by looking to the sky & praying for an answer or a sign. I keep my head high to avoid letting people be able to see the sorrow & fear in my eyes. I stand strong by breaking down in secret. Letting the emotions out into a page or into a bucket of tears. I then build myself up & no longer hold onto what has hurt or scared. Instead I place it aside to remind of me of what I must keep away from. I hide
my insecurity under a ever glowing grin. Thinking of a time once upon a time.
Living a life far past my equals I struggle to find the balance.
Reaching for that dream painted by the women who molded me. Looking for the path in which the told me of. The one set down a long & winding way to a city of eternal contentment. A place few find & many search for. I thought I was given the secret to find it. But now
I only see that the stories in which I was told are only a dream to something not there. Instead it is a place of sublime quiet & peace. Full of smiles & hugs. It is not a long & winding road. It is the
place in which I am now. Contentment has been found. People may throw rocks & slander thoughts but my world is resolute. It can't be dissolved. It is a canvas that has been etched into perfection & shall never fade as long as I see it that way.
Head high.chin up. Standing Strong.
The boy wonder signing off
I have reflected upon this question & found an answer. I keep my head up by looking to the sky & praying for an answer or a sign. I keep my head high to avoid letting people be able to see the sorrow & fear in my eyes. I stand strong by breaking down in secret. Letting the emotions out into a page or into a bucket of tears. I then build myself up & no longer hold onto what has hurt or scared. Instead I place it aside to remind of me of what I must keep away from. I hide
my insecurity under a ever glowing grin. Thinking of a time once upon a time.
Living a life far past my equals I struggle to find the balance.
Reaching for that dream painted by the women who molded me. Looking for the path in which the told me of. The one set down a long & winding way to a city of eternal contentment. A place few find & many search for. I thought I was given the secret to find it. But now
I only see that the stories in which I was told are only a dream to something not there. Instead it is a place of sublime quiet & peace. Full of smiles & hugs. It is not a long & winding road. It is the
place in which I am now. Contentment has been found. People may throw rocks & slander thoughts but my world is resolute. It can't be dissolved. It is a canvas that has been etched into perfection & shall never fade as long as I see it that way.
Head high.chin up. Standing Strong.
The boy wonder signing off
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Ode to the Nice Guys
I read this article and felt it needed to be shared...
Ode to the Nice Guys
This rant was written for the Wharton Undergraduate Journal
This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl’s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.
This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they’re at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don’t end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.
This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you’d ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn’t have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing “serious” between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: “oh, but we’re just friends!” And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that.
The nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don’t seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can’t. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.
So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you’re sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.
Friday, April 30, 2010
How I like My Women
I made a reference on twitter the other to how I like my women. The analogy is simple, I like my women like I like my cars. Here is my top 10 Things I look for:
1. Dependable- Like anything else that is a regular in your life, I need both a car and a Woman to be there so you can look to them during times of need and be there in a pinch.
2. speed- Lets face it some females like to take their time and do things their pace. I need a girl who knows what needs to be done and takes care of it.
3.Durable- I have been told I can be rough around the edges at times. I need a car and a woman who can handle my.... aggressive handling
4. Silent but Deadly- Personally cars that you can hear from 3 Blocks away isn't cute. Same with a Woman. Be able to be heard when need be but not all the time.
5. Shoes have to match the Body- Ever see a Mini Van with 23 Inch Rims and it leaves you looking confused??? If you a Woman who Can't Walk in Heels Properly... I CAN NOT deal with you... Sorry
6. Multiple Roles- I need a car that can be a mode of transportation, a temporary bed, a dining room and my "me time" space. I need a woman who can be a Lady in the street and... You know the rest
7. Cost Effective- Some cars are beautiful and turn on the drop of the dime but one thing goes wrong and you need 6 jobs just to fix it. I need a car that keeps money in my pocket and still Great to Ride around in.
8.Comfort- If I cant sit down for more then 10 minutes... There is a problem
9.Great Guide- No one is perfect. We all get lost and mixed up sometimes
10. Look DAMN Good In all Black- Enough Said...
1. Dependable- Like anything else that is a regular in your life, I need both a car and a Woman to be there so you can look to them during times of need and be there in a pinch.
2. speed- Lets face it some females like to take their time and do things their pace. I need a girl who knows what needs to be done and takes care of it.
3.Durable- I have been told I can be rough around the edges at times. I need a car and a woman who can handle my.... aggressive handling
4. Silent but Deadly- Personally cars that you can hear from 3 Blocks away isn't cute. Same with a Woman. Be able to be heard when need be but not all the time.
5. Shoes have to match the Body- Ever see a Mini Van with 23 Inch Rims and it leaves you looking confused??? If you a Woman who Can't Walk in Heels Properly... I CAN NOT deal with you... Sorry
6. Multiple Roles- I need a car that can be a mode of transportation, a temporary bed, a dining room and my "me time" space. I need a woman who can be a Lady in the street and... You know the rest
7. Cost Effective- Some cars are beautiful and turn on the drop of the dime but one thing goes wrong and you need 6 jobs just to fix it. I need a car that keeps money in my pocket and still Great to Ride around in.
8.Comfort- If I cant sit down for more then 10 minutes... There is a problem
9.Great Guide- No one is perfect. We all get lost and mixed up sometimes
10. Look DAMN Good In all Black- Enough Said...
Friday, April 9, 2010
A letter To Myself
Dear Self,
People always tell me "J, You got the Good Life"
"J you Know everybody, What 's Going down tonight???"
"J I kow you hitting that..."
What do people really know? They know only what I show them and what they speculate based off the average male in my postion would strive towards.
That would tally up to sex, partying, sex, making tons of money... Did i Mention Sex?
I am sick and tired of people no longer looking to see who I am and just seeing who they want to see.
I and sick and tired of people assumin I am Perfect.
I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I just find myself just wanting to slow down life for a brief moment. Sex i sa game too many people are willing to play and it doesnt excite me as much as it did before.
It thrown out there left and right and the seduction and taboo of it is lost.
If I wanted I could take every offer that was presented to me and add notches to my belt...
But Would be the point? Where would be the fun in that? There is no chase... No mystery... No seduction.
It has been a year since I made choices in my life that were rather drastic and changed my life style for the better.
I have been through so many experiences, seen so many things, done so many crazy and outlandish things and made some memoriable irresponsible choices.
I have enjoyed every second of it... But I sit here now thinking to myself...
Wondering if I have hit my ceiling.. If there is nothing more to challange me.
I look for the chase and thrill but I can't seem to find it.
Been there, Done that. I am 20 yrs old and I have done more things and been in more places in one month then many have done in their lifetimes.
I have gathered Random Facts and watched as people worked their lives away worrying about supporting an unknown future.
That is not me. A tie and a cube isn't where I belong.
I belong out in the world, Feet to pavement making moves and living in the action slowing down only when buisness needs to be handled. When I do slow doen it feels as if there is something out there waiting for me so it can happen.
I feel like an addict looking for a way out. I feel drawn to make it to the next level, to feel accomplished,to do what isn't expected of me and actually make something of myself.
Do I Really want to though?
...
Do I want to grow up and be responsible?
......
Do I want to be the guy with the nice house, car and job???
Because with that comes stress, Headaches and pressure. Do I Really want to take that next step to that new level or Just cruise as I am?
Just bullshit through the Rest of College and stay under the radar as I have become accustom to... Above the level of loser... but under the level of a celebrity... Just that guy who is there and everyone Loves and Knows...
What Do I do???
Signed,
A man Lost In a Sea of Questions
People always tell me "J, You got the Good Life"
"J you Know everybody, What 's Going down tonight???"
"J I kow you hitting that..."
What do people really know? They know only what I show them and what they speculate based off the average male in my postion would strive towards.
That would tally up to sex, partying, sex, making tons of money... Did i Mention Sex?
I am sick and tired of people no longer looking to see who I am and just seeing who they want to see.
I and sick and tired of people assumin I am Perfect.
I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I just find myself just wanting to slow down life for a brief moment. Sex i sa game too many people are willing to play and it doesnt excite me as much as it did before.
It thrown out there left and right and the seduction and taboo of it is lost.
If I wanted I could take every offer that was presented to me and add notches to my belt...
But Would be the point? Where would be the fun in that? There is no chase... No mystery... No seduction.
It has been a year since I made choices in my life that were rather drastic and changed my life style for the better.
I have been through so many experiences, seen so many things, done so many crazy and outlandish things and made some memoriable irresponsible choices.
I have enjoyed every second of it... But I sit here now thinking to myself...
Wondering if I have hit my ceiling.. If there is nothing more to challange me.
I look for the chase and thrill but I can't seem to find it.
Been there, Done that. I am 20 yrs old and I have done more things and been in more places in one month then many have done in their lifetimes.
I have gathered Random Facts and watched as people worked their lives away worrying about supporting an unknown future.
That is not me. A tie and a cube isn't where I belong.
I belong out in the world, Feet to pavement making moves and living in the action slowing down only when buisness needs to be handled. When I do slow doen it feels as if there is something out there waiting for me so it can happen.
I feel like an addict looking for a way out. I feel drawn to make it to the next level, to feel accomplished,to do what isn't expected of me and actually make something of myself.
Do I Really want to though?
...
Do I want to grow up and be responsible?
......
Do I want to be the guy with the nice house, car and job???
Because with that comes stress, Headaches and pressure. Do I Really want to take that next step to that new level or Just cruise as I am?
Just bullshit through the Rest of College and stay under the radar as I have become accustom to... Above the level of loser... but under the level of a celebrity... Just that guy who is there and everyone Loves and Knows...
What Do I do???
Signed,
A man Lost In a Sea of Questions
Saturday, January 23, 2010
What we all think
Its a New year...
New thoughts, new views of life, New people to influence you. I recently went to an open mic Performance in the beautiful city of New York and on the way home i wrote this... I was inspired by a young woman who started off her poem with the most honest words I have ever heard spoken aloud...
Fuck me..
So because of these words I wrote this, It is entitled
'What We All Think':
Those eyes...
They stare at from across the room. Giving that look to often seen and too often felt on the back of my neck.
This feeling is unbearable like your taking a needle and digging away trying to severe my brain from the stem of my backbone.
I gaze back with a sense of Questioning... Why me? Why now?
Is it not the 21st Century and people should speak freely of the feelings... Rather you stand at the End of the Train car glancing at me wondering...
As I sit through this ride, I open up my eyes and I peer into yours as our Minds unconciously intertwine and the thoughts of the imaginable play stop and rewind and play 3 times over and then both look away and sigh wondering what if...
As you walk past me in the mall as I eat my food in silence do you past me looking the way you do. I stop for a moment and you smirk as you look at me while turn your hips toward me and they hit into position so sharp that its like a shot pointed at me and I feel all at once the things I would do if I ever got my hands on Caramel non-sprayed natural tan.
So what would you do if I looking like a well off man instead of a hoodlum ever approached. Would you scream how you really feel? Or would I be another Black with Locks up in your face saying the same old shit... Or would look at each others Face and say what we both really want to say...
"Trying to fuck???"
-Shocking words from the Boy Wonder signing off...
New thoughts, new views of life, New people to influence you. I recently went to an open mic Performance in the beautiful city of New York and on the way home i wrote this... I was inspired by a young woman who started off her poem with the most honest words I have ever heard spoken aloud...
Fuck me..
So because of these words I wrote this, It is entitled
'What We All Think':
Those eyes...
They stare at from across the room. Giving that look to often seen and too often felt on the back of my neck.
This feeling is unbearable like your taking a needle and digging away trying to severe my brain from the stem of my backbone.
I gaze back with a sense of Questioning... Why me? Why now?
Is it not the 21st Century and people should speak freely of the feelings... Rather you stand at the End of the Train car glancing at me wondering...
As I sit through this ride, I open up my eyes and I peer into yours as our Minds unconciously intertwine and the thoughts of the imaginable play stop and rewind and play 3 times over and then both look away and sigh wondering what if...
As you walk past me in the mall as I eat my food in silence do you past me looking the way you do. I stop for a moment and you smirk as you look at me while turn your hips toward me and they hit into position so sharp that its like a shot pointed at me and I feel all at once the things I would do if I ever got my hands on Caramel non-sprayed natural tan.
So what would you do if I looking like a well off man instead of a hoodlum ever approached. Would you scream how you really feel? Or would I be another Black with Locks up in your face saying the same old shit... Or would look at each others Face and say what we both really want to say...
"Trying to fuck???"
-Shocking words from the Boy Wonder signing off...
Saturday, December 19, 2009
so I had someone ask me a very interesting question...
"Jay why do you act so Prude toward people when everyone loves you so much?"
My response? "Why? they all may love me but how many really care? If I really needed something, How many would actually be there? I am happy to be loved and love right back but sometimes people just don't know how to act...
I am not a horrible person. I try to be as polite as I can be. I treat females with the utmost respect. I give respect to the Guys who earned it. I can honestly I have a hand full of people that I can say I can honestly trust and count on. Females say they are here for me but when I turn for a shoulder to lean on she is chasing a man we both know is no good for her. I try to be there for her but she continually shows me these guys she think is the right one and I just laugh. this not just one female in my life, its 2 or 3. I have a female in my life that would make me hubby in a half a heart beat. I have a woman in my life that puts me before anything else and I don't know why. She has been through the ups and downs by me. She will not leave my side though. Its kind of amazing. The only guy I can say is there for me when ever I need him is currently caught up dealing with his kids and their ups and downs. I think its his way to deal with his inability to understand the thought process that I go through on a regular basis.
So in my life I have:
Gabriel
Harley Quinn
Black Kanary
My Taino Woman
The Twinns
The New additions:
My Wonderman- Now this girl seems to ne perfect. She is strong willed, Feisty, Protective, Outgoing and she is drop dead gorgeous. I try to find her flaws but it seems that she has none. She seems to have everything in order. She knows what she wants. She knows how she wants it... and I can't help but be drawn to it.
Louis Lane- What can I say about this one... She is the beautiful intellectual type that looks past the Nerd by her side and looks for the dashing Superman. I feel like Kent trying to tell her that the image of a man that she is looking for is really something I am but she insists on chasing the image. I try over and over and she keeps me close to her heart but is out looking for that thrill. I guess I shall Let her do so because I cannot change her Views.
sometimes I try to understand all these people but I just go with the flow...
That's all you can do right???
The Boy Wonder Signing off...
"Jay why do you act so Prude toward people when everyone loves you so much?"
My response? "Why? they all may love me but how many really care? If I really needed something, How many would actually be there? I am happy to be loved and love right back but sometimes people just don't know how to act...
I am not a horrible person. I try to be as polite as I can be. I treat females with the utmost respect. I give respect to the Guys who earned it. I can honestly I have a hand full of people that I can say I can honestly trust and count on. Females say they are here for me but when I turn for a shoulder to lean on she is chasing a man we both know is no good for her. I try to be there for her but she continually shows me these guys she think is the right one and I just laugh. this not just one female in my life, its 2 or 3. I have a female in my life that would make me hubby in a half a heart beat. I have a woman in my life that puts me before anything else and I don't know why. She has been through the ups and downs by me. She will not leave my side though. Its kind of amazing. The only guy I can say is there for me when ever I need him is currently caught up dealing with his kids and their ups and downs. I think its his way to deal with his inability to understand the thought process that I go through on a regular basis.
So in my life I have:
Gabriel
Harley Quinn
Black Kanary
My Taino Woman
The Twinns
The New additions:
My Wonderman- Now this girl seems to ne perfect. She is strong willed, Feisty, Protective, Outgoing and she is drop dead gorgeous. I try to find her flaws but it seems that she has none. She seems to have everything in order. She knows what she wants. She knows how she wants it... and I can't help but be drawn to it.
Louis Lane- What can I say about this one... She is the beautiful intellectual type that looks past the Nerd by her side and looks for the dashing Superman. I feel like Kent trying to tell her that the image of a man that she is looking for is really something I am but she insists on chasing the image. I try over and over and she keeps me close to her heart but is out looking for that thrill. I guess I shall Let her do so because I cannot change her Views.
sometimes I try to understand all these people but I just go with the flow...
That's all you can do right???
The Boy Wonder Signing off...
Saturday, November 28, 2009
J
So I keep coming across these questions between myself and that other person in your head people call the "conscious."
These Questions always seems to be tabled for another discussion and held off until next meeting and always Left as old business.
The questions that seem to always come to mind is who am I?
Where am I going with this?
What am I doing with my life?
Why do I such dumb things?
I have come to the Answer of the question who. Who am I?
I am the guy who brings smiles to people's faces. The guy who is always wanted around.
I am the guy who says outlandish things and gets away with it.
I am the guy ladies can't help but to adore and guys can't help but hate to be around. I am a lost cause on a road to lead to uncertainty.
A man with no plan, no map, no compass, giving the finger to the road less traveled and swinging through vines and trees to find my own groove to the beat.
I am the guy who when out of sight is usually out of mind. A guy adored by many, liked by many more but only truly loved by a handful.
I'm the guy who you think is the perfect guy but really messed up and aspire to be half the man people think I am.
I am the healer during time of need and fade into the distance to figure out how to heal myself once your wing has mended.
I am the guy with the other perspective on life but couldn't tell you why he can't stop himself from doing illogical things.
The other Questions?
Easy...
What am I doing with my life? No clue, riding the waves until I'm brought to a shore that feels right.
Where am I going with this? Just feeling out the rhythms that come from my heart and catch the beat to the right path.
Why do I do such dumb things? Because learning not to repeat them is the purpose of the action to begin with.
I think it all fits into place.
There is no complicated answer to me. I am what you see.
No mysteries and clouded mirrors. I am what I am.
All who I can Be.
J.
-The Boy wonder Signing Off
These Questions always seems to be tabled for another discussion and held off until next meeting and always Left as old business.
The questions that seem to always come to mind is who am I?
Where am I going with this?
What am I doing with my life?
Why do I such dumb things?
I have come to the Answer of the question who. Who am I?
I am the guy who brings smiles to people's faces. The guy who is always wanted around.
I am the guy who says outlandish things and gets away with it.
I am the guy ladies can't help but to adore and guys can't help but hate to be around. I am a lost cause on a road to lead to uncertainty.
A man with no plan, no map, no compass, giving the finger to the road less traveled and swinging through vines and trees to find my own groove to the beat.
I am the guy who when out of sight is usually out of mind. A guy adored by many, liked by many more but only truly loved by a handful.
I'm the guy who you think is the perfect guy but really messed up and aspire to be half the man people think I am.
I am the healer during time of need and fade into the distance to figure out how to heal myself once your wing has mended.
I am the guy with the other perspective on life but couldn't tell you why he can't stop himself from doing illogical things.
The other Questions?
Easy...
What am I doing with my life? No clue, riding the waves until I'm brought to a shore that feels right.
Where am I going with this? Just feeling out the rhythms that come from my heart and catch the beat to the right path.
Why do I do such dumb things? Because learning not to repeat them is the purpose of the action to begin with.
I think it all fits into place.
There is no complicated answer to me. I am what you see.
No mysteries and clouded mirrors. I am what I am.
All who I can Be.
J.
-The Boy wonder Signing Off
Friday, November 6, 2009
A random dream of an old Young Man...
Day after day, night after crisp cold night
I stare out my window wondering what's outside.
What can be waiting for me so it can happen
What can I do to make this world a better place.
Pondering of these thoughts birth ideas and dreams...
Ideas and dreams that if it were to come alive and let all the hope buried deep inside trying to release itself and make my world a brighter day.
I end up at a desk trying to draw or write a way.
Trying to make a path to this feeling deep inside and I sit and stare at the red ink on the paper
but its not... Its the blood from my hand because I'm holding onto then pen so tight
hoping that if I keep writing and drawing my dreams will come alive and won't have to worry about what I feel inside.
Cuz by then I would understand that what I dream can come to life If I just believe...
I stare out my window wondering what's outside.
What can be waiting for me so it can happen
What can I do to make this world a better place.
Pondering of these thoughts birth ideas and dreams...
Ideas and dreams that if it were to come alive and let all the hope buried deep inside trying to release itself and make my world a brighter day.
I end up at a desk trying to draw or write a way.
Trying to make a path to this feeling deep inside and I sit and stare at the red ink on the paper
but its not... Its the blood from my hand because I'm holding onto then pen so tight
hoping that if I keep writing and drawing my dreams will come alive and won't have to worry about what I feel inside.
Cuz by then I would understand that what I dream can come to life If I just believe...
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
The balance of my unbalanced life
Over the last few weeks many new thoughts have run through my mind. Thoughts of lust, love, affection, emotions and situations in which surround me.
I find myself feeling very close to many people. People at times I think want to throw me off a building but still we stand beside me through my lowest times. People I genuinely love. There are some people I have come across that I would lay some good sex down on but choose not to because it is not within my nature to just run through people's lives in order to get my nut.
The list
I have these people who I find in my life make it all better:
-The Arc Angel Gabriel
I have my arc angel Gabriel who is there for me when I do the dumbest things and the brightest.
My Gabriel Watches over me with a silent eye and whispers word of guidance to keep me straight
- Harley Quinn
Harley is the Girl in my life who no matter how much she gets on your nerves, you can't help but keep close by your side. She does tricks, stunts and back flips just to keep a smile on my face. She is a woman that I would go to the end of the universe and back for just to keep her close.
-Black Canary
A lady who is vocal about EVERYTHING I do. She is the sweetest thing in the world to me. A true ride or die Woman. She would fight the demons of Hell if it meant spending 30 seconds in my arms.
I would fight the Devil himself in order to keep her from pain.
She would come my defence and take care of anyone who means harm against me.
-My Taino Woman
A Truly tough Gale who takes crap from no one, but is weakened by my honesty and compassion.
If it meant telling me or Saint Peter at the gate she would ask to talk to me. I don't quite know why.
I feel she could be a woman to set me straight with a smack and make it up with a kiss.
Even though she probably would never openly admit it.
- The Twins
Although I have just met them I see it becoming the beginning of a beautiful bond. They piss me the hell off but I don't think there is anything within reason that I wouldn't do for them.
For some reason they look up to me and I feel obligated to be there for them.
They remind me of myself for some reason. They have there ups and downs but I can tell they will stick it out in the end
With all of these people in my life I find I have the these ghosts. Ghosts that haunt me and follow me where ever I go.
They leave clues and reminders of their existence. Just when I forget about them they make sure to dig deep and remind of what came of them.
Ghosts that won't go away. I try to ignore them in hopes that if I do it long enough they will disappear.
In the end its clear though that with out those ghosts my life would be an uneven balance and all the good I bad would not truly appreciated if my ghosts were not there...
So I wear my heart on my sleeve wit an iron-clad box around in order to be me. I am a person who is self protected but a free spirit.
Thoughts from trivial people are meaningless to me. Now I must stop judging myself in order to make life more then just content, in order to make me happy...
-Boy wonder Signing off
I find myself feeling very close to many people. People at times I think want to throw me off a building but still we stand beside me through my lowest times. People I genuinely love. There are some people I have come across that I would lay some good sex down on but choose not to because it is not within my nature to just run through people's lives in order to get my nut.
The list
I have these people who I find in my life make it all better:
-The Arc Angel Gabriel
I have my arc angel Gabriel who is there for me when I do the dumbest things and the brightest.
My Gabriel Watches over me with a silent eye and whispers word of guidance to keep me straight
- Harley Quinn
Harley is the Girl in my life who no matter how much she gets on your nerves, you can't help but keep close by your side. She does tricks, stunts and back flips just to keep a smile on my face. She is a woman that I would go to the end of the universe and back for just to keep her close.
-Black Canary
A lady who is vocal about EVERYTHING I do. She is the sweetest thing in the world to me. A true ride or die Woman. She would fight the demons of Hell if it meant spending 30 seconds in my arms.
I would fight the Devil himself in order to keep her from pain.
She would come my defence and take care of anyone who means harm against me.
-My Taino Woman
A Truly tough Gale who takes crap from no one, but is weakened by my honesty and compassion.
If it meant telling me or Saint Peter at the gate she would ask to talk to me. I don't quite know why.
I feel she could be a woman to set me straight with a smack and make it up with a kiss.
Even though she probably would never openly admit it.
- The Twins
Although I have just met them I see it becoming the beginning of a beautiful bond. They piss me the hell off but I don't think there is anything within reason that I wouldn't do for them.
For some reason they look up to me and I feel obligated to be there for them.
They remind me of myself for some reason. They have there ups and downs but I can tell they will stick it out in the end
With all of these people in my life I find I have the these ghosts. Ghosts that haunt me and follow me where ever I go.
They leave clues and reminders of their existence. Just when I forget about them they make sure to dig deep and remind of what came of them.
Ghosts that won't go away. I try to ignore them in hopes that if I do it long enough they will disappear.
In the end its clear though that with out those ghosts my life would be an uneven balance and all the good I bad would not truly appreciated if my ghosts were not there...
So I wear my heart on my sleeve wit an iron-clad box around in order to be me. I am a person who is self protected but a free spirit.
Thoughts from trivial people are meaningless to me. Now I must stop judging myself in order to make life more then just content, in order to make me happy...
-Boy wonder Signing off
Friday, September 25, 2009
A Father's Shadow...
As a young boy you are expected to look up to your father and want to be the perfect son to impress your him. Your father is suppose to be a shinning example of how to act and hold yourself. A model father would play catch with his son and teach him the ropes of just being a rambunctious little kid. He should be there through your ups, downs and everything in between.
Growing up as a kid I had no father figure. I had my mother who worked three jobs and was rarely home, two older brothers who ran the streets of Brooklyn being the kids they were, my aunts who had their own kids to worry about and older cousins who paid me no mind and never gave me the time of day because I was just too small. So where did that leave me? It left me as a quiet young child who wanted some attention but at such a young age I would just get in the way. So I always found some way to occupy my time. Reading the same book over and over, watching the same movies over and over, playing inside a cardboard box and pretending to be some where doing very adventerous things and all the while content with what I was doing.
Growing up I always knew who my father was. The man who sent pictures to us from place. The person my mother loved. the person my brothers despised. The man who couldn't wait to meet me. Until my teenage years I never really understood what all that was. As a child I looked like my father and everyone helped I didnt become him. Until I actually saw whaat my father was like I didnt get this concept.
It is not a good feeling to feel helpless while a man who is suppose to be a role model to you abuses your mother, forces your brothers further and futher away from you because they want you to have a father but dont want anything to do with him. Being confused because your family smiles in your father's face and say he is good for nothing behind his back.
The older i get the more I fear I may become him. There is an anger in me that I fear I may one day not be able to control. i watched my brothers have that aggresiveness of my mother and I have seen what they can do. I being a combination of the two puts me in a spot where I am not quite sure what I would do if I lost control. I try to be the best man I can be by respecting females and trying to stay away from being dependent of them. I try to help my mother out within reason without feeling like a slave. I try to stay connected with my brothers and for the rest of my family... they could kick rocks and fall off a cliff for all I care.
I live my life a day at a time and I try to keep in mind that I am not my father, because I am his offspring I will NOT be a mess like him. I will not take advantage of others and treat them like they don't matter. I know the world doesn't revolve around me( although I wish it could at times) My father was a Dick and is now lonely and god only knows what he i sup to right now but I know I have people in my life who care about me and who are there for me.
People say you need a father figure in a boy's life or he will end up a thug in the street up to no good. Look at me though...level headed, loved, and doing something with my life. My mother and brothers kept me on the path. I'm not perfect and I know I have my faults, but at the end of the day I can be proud of what I see in the mirror and no longer live in my father's Shadow
The Boy Wonder Signing off...
Growing up as a kid I had no father figure. I had my mother who worked three jobs and was rarely home, two older brothers who ran the streets of Brooklyn being the kids they were, my aunts who had their own kids to worry about and older cousins who paid me no mind and never gave me the time of day because I was just too small. So where did that leave me? It left me as a quiet young child who wanted some attention but at such a young age I would just get in the way. So I always found some way to occupy my time. Reading the same book over and over, watching the same movies over and over, playing inside a cardboard box and pretending to be some where doing very adventerous things and all the while content with what I was doing.
Growing up I always knew who my father was. The man who sent pictures to us from place. The person my mother loved. the person my brothers despised. The man who couldn't wait to meet me. Until my teenage years I never really understood what all that was. As a child I looked like my father and everyone helped I didnt become him. Until I actually saw whaat my father was like I didnt get this concept.
It is not a good feeling to feel helpless while a man who is suppose to be a role model to you abuses your mother, forces your brothers further and futher away from you because they want you to have a father but dont want anything to do with him. Being confused because your family smiles in your father's face and say he is good for nothing behind his back.
The older i get the more I fear I may become him. There is an anger in me that I fear I may one day not be able to control. i watched my brothers have that aggresiveness of my mother and I have seen what they can do. I being a combination of the two puts me in a spot where I am not quite sure what I would do if I lost control. I try to be the best man I can be by respecting females and trying to stay away from being dependent of them. I try to help my mother out within reason without feeling like a slave. I try to stay connected with my brothers and for the rest of my family... they could kick rocks and fall off a cliff for all I care.
I live my life a day at a time and I try to keep in mind that I am not my father, because I am his offspring I will NOT be a mess like him. I will not take advantage of others and treat them like they don't matter. I know the world doesn't revolve around me( although I wish it could at times) My father was a Dick and is now lonely and god only knows what he i sup to right now but I know I have people in my life who care about me and who are there for me.
People say you need a father figure in a boy's life or he will end up a thug in the street up to no good. Look at me though...level headed, loved, and doing something with my life. My mother and brothers kept me on the path. I'm not perfect and I know I have my faults, but at the end of the day I can be proud of what I see in the mirror and no longer live in my father's Shadow
The Boy Wonder Signing off...
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Couch-Capades
Now we all have our little likes, dislikes and things that we do on a regular basis. I have come across one of these in which I found very interesting and figured I would share.
I am sure many of you have grown up into the people you are now because of the things you have done, didn't do or thought of doing. I came across a story of a pair of two very interesting people who we shall say are from two very different aspects of life with much in common and things of difference few and far between. These two people came together purely by chance and ended up in bed together...well actually the couch. Now you would think it was a wild and raunchy sex-capade but in fact it was a very sensual yet sexual act that put these two people in a predicament they would have never imagined.
Now I look at this story and laugh only because it is a story that anyone could fall into. It is a story of casual flirting to an extreme. And taken to a point where most would not dare venture. A place where even this boy wonder can not even fathom going to and not holding back from running to my trusty pack and getting the golden (or whichever color I pull out first) package to save the day.
Replaying the story in my head I see where the logic in this is but doesn't quite understand how it didn't go as far as the norm of society would have taken it. I say what is wrong with casualty in all that you do from shopping to bedroom (or whatever room you prefer) fun??? I know a Teacher of exceptional standards that would agree with me on this point.
So sensuality for Sexual pleasure, a trade I guess after much thought I would have to agree with. After all I am only the Boy wonder...far too young to have younger Boy Wonders running around. I rather not have them at all but many feel this Boy Wonder would be a great inspiration to younger ones (Yeah Okay) but alas, opinions are like Buttholes... Everyone has one.
Boy wonder signing off...
I am sure many of you have grown up into the people you are now because of the things you have done, didn't do or thought of doing. I came across a story of a pair of two very interesting people who we shall say are from two very different aspects of life with much in common and things of difference few and far between. These two people came together purely by chance and ended up in bed together...well actually the couch. Now you would think it was a wild and raunchy sex-capade but in fact it was a very sensual yet sexual act that put these two people in a predicament they would have never imagined.
Now I look at this story and laugh only because it is a story that anyone could fall into. It is a story of casual flirting to an extreme. And taken to a point where most would not dare venture. A place where even this boy wonder can not even fathom going to and not holding back from running to my trusty pack and getting the golden (or whichever color I pull out first) package to save the day.
Replaying the story in my head I see where the logic in this is but doesn't quite understand how it didn't go as far as the norm of society would have taken it. I say what is wrong with casualty in all that you do from shopping to bedroom (or whatever room you prefer) fun??? I know a Teacher of exceptional standards that would agree with me on this point.
So sensuality for Sexual pleasure, a trade I guess after much thought I would have to agree with. After all I am only the Boy wonder...far too young to have younger Boy Wonders running around. I rather not have them at all but many feel this Boy Wonder would be a great inspiration to younger ones (Yeah Okay) but alas, opinions are like Buttholes... Everyone has one.
Boy wonder signing off...
Monday, August 3, 2009
the Lime Light
Ever feel like your an attention grabber although you dont' mean to be??? Ever feel that people come to you for advice and a shoulder to cry on??? Ever been that person who is loved by all but felt like your the loneliest person in the Universe.
some people always say that I am lucky to have so many people around me who care. i thank them for it and say "yeah I am lucky" but alot of times I cam only count a hand full of people that I can say actually care about anything that has to do with me. People see me and then I am loved but once I am gone its as simple as the saying "out of sight, out of mind." So what are you to do when you are always thought of and you are expected to keep up an image that people have of you???
It is said that with great power comes great responsibilty... Ain't that the truth. When you have the power to command attention with ease you then have to learn to entertain those whose attention you have captured. At my young age I have learned to entertain and then disssappear out of sight in order to go into my own little bubble of reality. Lately though I have found myself expected to entertain multiple people and various times, for rather large amounts of time. It is physically draining but I continue to do it because I care for these indiviuals. I pull every trick in the book to keep things going but I running out of routines and fast. I can only go on but for so long.
So what do you do when you are the center of attention and you are standing there with your cock in your hand lookin like a jackass because you are completely lost in absolute eye of the bubble of a world you live in??? Who knows, I have been known to work Miracles but there is only but so much magic up my sleeve that i can pull out before I start running on fumes.
Acrobatics, stand up comedy, pies to the face, juggling,practical jokes, amazing and dangerous stunts and an act with dangerous live animals. the list goes on and on but eventually it all ends. so what then???
-the Boy wonder signing off
some people always say that I am lucky to have so many people around me who care. i thank them for it and say "yeah I am lucky" but alot of times I cam only count a hand full of people that I can say actually care about anything that has to do with me. People see me and then I am loved but once I am gone its as simple as the saying "out of sight, out of mind." So what are you to do when you are always thought of and you are expected to keep up an image that people have of you???
It is said that with great power comes great responsibilty... Ain't that the truth. When you have the power to command attention with ease you then have to learn to entertain those whose attention you have captured. At my young age I have learned to entertain and then disssappear out of sight in order to go into my own little bubble of reality. Lately though I have found myself expected to entertain multiple people and various times, for rather large amounts of time. It is physically draining but I continue to do it because I care for these indiviuals. I pull every trick in the book to keep things going but I running out of routines and fast. I can only go on but for so long.
So what do you do when you are the center of attention and you are standing there with your cock in your hand lookin like a jackass because you are completely lost in absolute eye of the bubble of a world you live in??? Who knows, I have been known to work Miracles but there is only but so much magic up my sleeve that i can pull out before I start running on fumes.
Acrobatics, stand up comedy, pies to the face, juggling,practical jokes, amazing and dangerous stunts and an act with dangerous live animals. the list goes on and on but eventually it all ends. so what then???
-the Boy wonder signing off
Friday, July 24, 2009
I'm Only One Man
I look at myself in the mirror every morning and ask myself who am I? What is my purpose on this Earth? Why am I loved by so many and hated by even more? People go there whoole lives searching for that one thing that makes them happy. I have things that make me happy I just don't understand why. My arrogance can be over whelming at times, even for me. I find myself being very self centered. I step back and look at my self from an outside perspective and still see an incomplete man. No matter how I try to see it, I cant see what everyone else sees. Photo after photo, video after video, story after story I find myself getting an image of a person I don't know.
As I look back on the last few months, i find myself stratched thin... I find i try to make every one happy in hopes of everything one day working itself out, but it seems my determination to do womething good is dragging me deeper and deeper into a hole. A very close person made a metaphor about Getting switzedrland to go to war with you knowing it is and always will be a neutral country. This is how it feels. Better words were never spoken. No matter how hard I try to make everyone happy, the more and more aggitated everyone gets because they dont have my complete attention. So now I have tried to juggle being almost everywhere at one and still no matter how hard i try, its never enough.
When I just spend time with someone who truely is fun to be around people start to complain that I am never around anymore and my pressence is then requested. So I agree to keep the peacebut then all I hear is complaints. So what to do??? Should I just hide under a set of stairs and do my own thing until everyone forgets I was ever there??? will that ever be an option??? Will I ever be able like Ne-yo and fade into the Background??? What to do??? I have accepted that I am the one who has the power to bring people together and even under arguements. So why can't I have the power to make sure everyone is satisfied???
Trying to be everything everyone else wants me to be, but at the end of the day....
Im Only One Man
Boy Wonder Singing off...
As I look back on the last few months, i find myself stratched thin... I find i try to make every one happy in hopes of everything one day working itself out, but it seems my determination to do womething good is dragging me deeper and deeper into a hole. A very close person made a metaphor about Getting switzedrland to go to war with you knowing it is and always will be a neutral country. This is how it feels. Better words were never spoken. No matter how hard I try to make everyone happy, the more and more aggitated everyone gets because they dont have my complete attention. So now I have tried to juggle being almost everywhere at one and still no matter how hard i try, its never enough.
When I just spend time with someone who truely is fun to be around people start to complain that I am never around anymore and my pressence is then requested. So I agree to keep the peacebut then all I hear is complaints. So what to do??? Should I just hide under a set of stairs and do my own thing until everyone forgets I was ever there??? will that ever be an option??? Will I ever be able like Ne-yo and fade into the Background??? What to do??? I have accepted that I am the one who has the power to bring people together and even under arguements. So why can't I have the power to make sure everyone is satisfied???
Trying to be everything everyone else wants me to be, but at the end of the day....
Im Only One Man
Boy Wonder Singing off...
Monday, July 13, 2009
lyfe
oh what to do, what to do. sometimes I sit and wonder about the things I put myself through and just wonder why I do it. I mean people constantly ask me why i don't chase girls or why am I still single or why am I like other guys. All of this is for the same reason. It's just not me. I do things my way and thats how it is. Chasing girls is something arrogant guys do, guys who treat feamles like property. Acting like dogs marking their territory even though they really can't claim it as their own because it's not really theirs. I am single because the females who want me are too young for my taste and the females I want let the idea of my age get in the way of everything. I am not like other guys because i understand the mind of a female. I know the ineer workings that make them know what they want and what they dont want. i know how to get them to make a choice between doing what their head says and their heart. I know how to warm the heart and have it to a point where it is willing to open up to let me in.
After all of this why am I the way I am. My past, the past of my loved ones and the repeating history of minorities makes me the way I am. I refuse to continue the abusive cycle of being an asshole and having girls chase me because of it. If females won't realize that guys like that aren't good for them, well I shall stay silent and wait until they run to me for comfort. When they sdo I shall be there but when they see who iI am then i shall respectfully bow away and leave them to ponder on what they just miss.
I have been told constantly I am too nice. The thing people don't realize is not that I am too nice, it is the fact that guys in general are too much of assholes and that is the norm that is expected. I you knew me though u would know I am not the norm. I laugh at the norm and walk down my own path. I do not follow the road less travelled. That would mean that i would have to follow the steps of others. I would rather do it myself and make it to my destination in my own way.
To my beautiful and lovely belle. I know I am an idiot for not just listening to you but I am who I am. Would love me if i wasn't. better yet would you love me any other way? i have watched you and i realize that around me your thought process stops and you just stall. You are caught by how I act. I feel that you are attracted to me because of this. You find it a great new breeze of fresh air. when i look at you I see something I haven't seen i n a long while. I just don't want you to point your attention to me because of it. Don't get me wrong I love that you do it, but I want you to do it because you are sure that is what makes you happy. Every time i turn around another guy chases you but you still at the end of the day run to me. This blows my mind because I always wait and watch, I look for the next guy in your life that im going to have to put into place because you will run to me crying about his idiot moves. It never happens though because you are always by my side, always holding on to me. I love it. I just feel you keep yourself at a distance though because you are scared of what is to come if you actually give in. I have told you this and always will tell you this, no matter what you will always have me here for that. no matter the choices you make.
Lyfe is what you make it. So as I think of myne I realize I have nothing to regret. Although I didn't have a freshmen year and I shall probably won't remember the rest of my College Lyfe I look foward to the Great Mis-adventures of the Greek Family
-The Boy Wonder
After all of this why am I the way I am. My past, the past of my loved ones and the repeating history of minorities makes me the way I am. I refuse to continue the abusive cycle of being an asshole and having girls chase me because of it. If females won't realize that guys like that aren't good for them, well I shall stay silent and wait until they run to me for comfort. When they sdo I shall be there but when they see who iI am then i shall respectfully bow away and leave them to ponder on what they just miss.
I have been told constantly I am too nice. The thing people don't realize is not that I am too nice, it is the fact that guys in general are too much of assholes and that is the norm that is expected. I you knew me though u would know I am not the norm. I laugh at the norm and walk down my own path. I do not follow the road less travelled. That would mean that i would have to follow the steps of others. I would rather do it myself and make it to my destination in my own way.
To my beautiful and lovely belle. I know I am an idiot for not just listening to you but I am who I am. Would love me if i wasn't. better yet would you love me any other way? i have watched you and i realize that around me your thought process stops and you just stall. You are caught by how I act. I feel that you are attracted to me because of this. You find it a great new breeze of fresh air. when i look at you I see something I haven't seen i n a long while. I just don't want you to point your attention to me because of it. Don't get me wrong I love that you do it, but I want you to do it because you are sure that is what makes you happy. Every time i turn around another guy chases you but you still at the end of the day run to me. This blows my mind because I always wait and watch, I look for the next guy in your life that im going to have to put into place because you will run to me crying about his idiot moves. It never happens though because you are always by my side, always holding on to me. I love it. I just feel you keep yourself at a distance though because you are scared of what is to come if you actually give in. I have told you this and always will tell you this, no matter what you will always have me here for that. no matter the choices you make.
Lyfe is what you make it. So as I think of myne I realize I have nothing to regret. Although I didn't have a freshmen year and I shall probably won't remember the rest of my College Lyfe I look foward to the Great Mis-adventures of the Greek Family
-The Boy Wonder
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Bedroom Talk
I think it is about time a guy tells the world what everything is that goes through both minds of each sex. Now in every situation you must realize that there is two points of view, the feminine side and the masculine side... although sometimes these intertwine with one another. For some Reason females feel that guys hide there emotions and hold back from them. The honest truth is that guys are not as emotionally built as females are. We are built to feel emotions and go through them but they dissappear and we move on... most of the time. Females tend to ignore emotions and think about what went on and build up different emotions on top of that with theories and thoughts that cloud judgement. I dont say this and mean that guys are not guilty of the same thing but this usaually occurs when he feels guilty about something or feels he has no control over what is happening.
To the guys of the world that think just because you are commiting the act and you think she is having a great time, stop and think. They usually make the faces to bring up your confidence and hopefully will get you to do it right. Ladies I know it may akward but sometimes guidence in the bed is not a bad thing. Many guys are guessing and are just going by what they think they know. If you guide it might be more exciting for the both of you. Its one feeling to be in you and then there is the feeling of your insides doing backflips and cart wheels overjoyed. That being said fellas pay more attention to her and less about yourself. In the long run holding back on a nut or... 3 might have her on you every second of everyday. Once she has gotten that toe curling experience it will never be forgotten.
P.S.
To both sides of the species... Foreplay was invented for a reason. Ladies if you think your man is too quick, help him work out that first shot. It is the bodies natural instinct to approcriate. So once he gets that out he can stop worrying about holding it in and worry about making you scream like an Opera singer. Fellas, its not all about getting yours, make sure she gets hers too. make sure if you have one she has two or three. It may sound impossible but if you pay attention to how she moves, when she is in the swing of it she will guide you with her body. Shifting, pulling, pushing and other body movements will get you there.
Now go make some bad lyfe choices...
The Boy Wonder Signing off...
To the guys of the world that think just because you are commiting the act and you think she is having a great time, stop and think. They usually make the faces to bring up your confidence and hopefully will get you to do it right. Ladies I know it may akward but sometimes guidence in the bed is not a bad thing. Many guys are guessing and are just going by what they think they know. If you guide it might be more exciting for the both of you. Its one feeling to be in you and then there is the feeling of your insides doing backflips and cart wheels overjoyed. That being said fellas pay more attention to her and less about yourself. In the long run holding back on a nut or... 3 might have her on you every second of everyday. Once she has gotten that toe curling experience it will never be forgotten.
P.S.
To both sides of the species... Foreplay was invented for a reason. Ladies if you think your man is too quick, help him work out that first shot. It is the bodies natural instinct to approcriate. So once he gets that out he can stop worrying about holding it in and worry about making you scream like an Opera singer. Fellas, its not all about getting yours, make sure she gets hers too. make sure if you have one she has two or three. It may sound impossible but if you pay attention to how she moves, when she is in the swing of it she will guide you with her body. Shifting, pulling, pushing and other body movements will get you there.
Now go make some bad lyfe choices...
The Boy Wonder Signing off...
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